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Feedee acceptance, de-lurking

It felt like the right time to come out on FF. I've been here a long time, lurking and feeling divided because although I've been an FA nearly my entire life, I haven't experienced myself as a feedee or fully embraced and accepted my long tendency to overeat because I love it.

I come from a family of athletes and I myself was a star runner growing up. State championships and stuff. That was a long time ago, although my weight stayed the same throughout most of my adult life, until the last year or so. I stuffed pillows like many here from 8yo. My mom "caught" me once but gracefully didn't mention it.

I have a very high metabolism and I have always eaten heartily, never showing it (but always wondering what it might be like, since I am very sexually attracted to roundness...but always projected outside myself). Until the last year, when my eating began hitting the next level...I was finally into a relationship with a foodie who although not embracing her own growing body fully (and not really grokking the kink at all to this point), got us eating more.

And all my gf's have gotten fatter on my watch, interesting how that works. Nobody really has complained.

In this new relationship we both grew rounder, together, not just her.

She is fascinated by my belly and buys me belly shirts all the time, like the one I'm wearing today in the pics on my profile. Last week when I was heading out to travel she advised me to stop at the donut shop for a long john (couldn't find the shop but totally would have). So, it's a mutually gaining relationship but kind of in half a state of denial. For her.

For me it's pretty exciting, although sexually tempered by the fact that she doesn't like what is happening to her own body (which is always more fun, when there's conscious acceptance and turn-on all around)...yet she does nothing about it and happily overeats all sorts of yummy, fattening foods with me. And still seems to wonder out loud why she is so round, and why her clothes don't fit right anymore. I thought that only happened in fantasy stories, but no lol.

I've gained thirty pounds, but slowly...I also like eating healthy stuff, a lot of it, in addition to "treats" and other things (like last night's dinner of parmesan garlic bread, cheddar broccoli soup, and spice cream with coconut whip) in increasing abundance. I don't like pain, so I do watch my limits...so gaining slowly, but gaining, which feels good to me.

It's good to be out and sharing with y'all about one of our mutually favorite things to do...eat yummy food and a lot of it! Nice to feel fully a part of the group finally too, nice to not hold back in my own lust for food and indulgence.
4 months